living in the reality of

do you think that we can be stuck between what is real and what we think is real?...it's kind of like living in those conversations you have with people inside your head that you never have...the conversations where you say things to people that you want to say but would never say for real...and in your mind they even answer you...weird huh?...I believe that more than a few of us know what I am talking about...you know what?...I don't want to live my life thinking that I am living but I am really not...the scriptures say that Jesus came to give us life...an abundant life...I don't think that means we will have more stuff...or more popularity...or more comfort...no I think what life He wants us to live is the life that takes our breath away, a life that we with our finite minds could even comprehend...not one where we are to afraid to say the things that need to be said to those who need to hear...and not one where we think that God is pleased with us when really He isn't...we know what right and yet we justify our arrogance towards Him by saying...He made me this way...I am forty eight years old and I want to live life...I want to love like I have never been hurt...I want to give like my bank account is endless...I want to sing as if no one's listening but Him...God's one and only Son left the splendor of heaven and experienced His Father turning His back on Him so that I could have LIFE...now that is no ordinary deal...please Father in heaven, please...help me LIVE in the reality of this truth...please!!!