holy discontenment

I have been very emotional lately...yes, crying like a baby...watching a movie...writing a text message to my daughter...in church last Sunday as we were praying for one of our soon to be moms...i think I just figured out why today...why I am so emotional that is...I haven't been feeling very good lately...a lot of aches and pains...hard time breathing...i know I sound like I am whining...but facts are facts...my emotionalism I believe is coming from my increased desire to not miss one thing that God has for me while on this planet...a marriage that shows others that God can take two totally different people and they can work in harmony every single day...a family that leaves a legacy of His grace and mercy to those who cross their paths...friendships that are deep and wonderful not just shallow and weak...and being part of a body of people who realize what Jesus did for them and live for others and not themselves...who allow what they learn about Him from the scriptures to not die in them but allow it to overflow to all they come in contact with...none of us know if we have tomorrow...and I really want to continue to have this feeling of whats next...God is amazing and desires us to live life not just exist...relax God is in control!